The more time I
spend reading God's word, the more I realize of just how awesome He
is. His greatness gives me this
unquenchable feeling of love and warmth and protection. While I sometimes find myself forgetting to
talk to God throughout the day, the instant I sit down with the Bible or read a
passage from a Bible study, I am once again reminded of the power of our
Savior.
The past few days
have been particularly taxing for me on a mental/emotional level. I was faced
with making a decision that did not (at first) have an easy answer; it dealt
with revisiting an old relationship and had the potential to be either really
great or really distressing. I
immediately turned to family and friends to help me navigate this dilemma. With various pieces of advice, I was still
left with uneasiness as to what to do. I
made a decision that I felt ambiguous about and rationalized my choice by
thinking "why not?" (not a great reason). I stuck with this decision for a few days
before I suddenly realized I had made a poor choice. Throughout my mental
turbulence, I prayed to God asking for clarity and had my family praying for me
as well. And God answered my prayer. He made it clear to me that I needed to
protect my mind and my heart and avoid the situation. When I finally accepted
this reality, a weight was lifted off of my shoulders; I felt free from the
burden of people pleasing and closer in my walk with God.
Sometimes when I
pray, I get impatient with God's response time.
I tend to jump to the conclusion that He has decided my prayers is too
insignificant or is busy handling other, more important, issues than mine. I couldn't be more wrong. God answers prayer not according to my
timetable, but His. He doesn't always
(usually) answer prayer in the way I envision because He provides even greater
things or what I actually need. In every season, God is good.
He never forgets his children.
"Be joyful in
hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."
Romans 12:12
Amen!